Having experienced the beyond-ness of all-that-is (which is something you can’t know until you do), I spend much effort trying to make sense of it. My goal used to be enlightenment, but now it simply is to end my internal struggle.
“‘Enlightenment’ is just a spiritual concept. It’s just one more thing to seek in a future that never comes.”
-from A Mind at Home with Itself by Byron Katie and Stephen Mitchell (and quotes below)
I am relieved that there is no goal to attain. Any goal we imagine for ourselves is simply a way to stay married to the dream of our seeming existence. The present moment is gone as soon as we notice it. Goals are equally elusive…gone as soon as they appear to be realized.
“If you’re trying to monitor your progress on your spiritual path—if you think you have any idea how far along you are—you might want to save yourself the trouble. There’s no attainment, because you already are what you want to become.”
As I am adjusting my mindset to the letting go of not only enlightenment, but all the concepts my mind appears to create, the conflict within me remains fierce. However, suffering has a purpose.
“Suffering is what creates buddhas.”
Therefore I remain steadfast on my journey towards freedom knowing I have no goal, timeline or ‘right’ thoughts to think. I only have to let the dream unfold. If the dream is painful I give thanks. If the dream is joyful I give thanks. I give thanks to all and to everything until I don’t even do that.
What remains after that is truth.