Even though I experience Truth easily and often, I still struggle to grasp that I am awakening. There are not a lot of ‘regular’ people talking about their Knowing of Truth.
Yet, here I am. Standing on the cusp of enlightenment with barely a roadmap to lead the way.
I am making it up as I go.
There is a great vacillation that occurs on this path. This is also rarely identified or discussed. Either you are awake or you are not.
But, what if I am awake some days and not the others?
This leads to pain and confusion. Why are there days of complete peace and days of complete suffering?
It is a process.
It is okay to get it ‘wrong’ some days and not have all the answers.
Be thankful for the ‘regular’ parts of your ‘regular’ life. They are the glue that is holding your sense of self together until it is safe to shed your identity completely.
“In today’s society, most of us having these realizations are not living in monasteries; we are not in a particularly supportive environment. In fact, in our society it is possible to have an amazing realization on Saturday and be back in the office Monday morning.”
‘The End of Your World’