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Beauty is Nigh

I have been climbing this mountain for a while now.  The path is uncertain and jagged rocks claw at my boots causing countless falls.

I am covered in dirt.

I am tired.

Yet, I keep going, keep pushing.  I am bound to break through to the light.

Hard work means success.

Hard work means success?

Why do I not see the progression?

Where is the top?  Is it buried in the clouds?  Will it never lend itself to me?

I have to keep going.

Think positive.  Be brave.  Keep moving towards the light.

My legs ache with exertion, my back caves into the pressure.  I am not sure how much further I can go.

In my tired confusion my eyes skim an upturned root a second too late.   I crash face first into the mud-covered path.  Pain sears through my skull as it connects to the ground beneath me.

I am jolted to a dead-stop.

Fear immediately washes over me.  No one has ever given me permission to quit.  All the heroes’ journeys are about motion.  Movement.  Doing.  Slaying. Fighting for your Life.

What about a journey that stops right in the middle?

Did I fail?

Am I a failure?

I give up completely.

The pain is too great to continue.

I have nothing more to give as this path has robbed me of my hope.

I flip myself over and sit squarely upon the very root that upended me.

My head tilts forward as the tears begin to catch at my feet, mingling with the puddles and earth below me.

Out of the corner of a tear-stained eye, I notice movement. A cardinal flutters nearby.  The bright red punctures the landscape with truth.

Once my eyes affix to it, she gently floats away so my gaze aligns with the path behind us.

All I see is beauty.

All I am is beauty.

The light filters in through the towering pines that flank the pathway.  This light dapples and dances across the greenery before us.

As I soak in the majesty around me, I understand that the only fear I was running from was my own.  This fear masked a deep, guarded pain that I keep hidden by always moving.

I have to stop running.

It is time to be still.

The only thing running gets you is tired.

Beauty is already here.

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Truth Sparkles

It is perfectly ok to polish the externals of your life until they shine.

Shiny things are pretty.

They also use their speckles of light to catch your attention and move you away from your Home.

Home is where all things are equal.

There is nothing to shine.

There is nothing to be.

There is nothing to do.

Truth sparkles on its own accord.

 

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The Stages of the Path

A spiritual path is not chosen.  It is given to everyone.  Every single one of us has the chance to journey inward to our highest self, or remain trapped in the machinations of the seemingly unfixable external world.  Honestly, I’m not comfortable with either, but the inward path, while currently quite painful, makes more sense to me than anything that unfolds in the world.

The first stage is recognizing that we are more than our bodies.  That part is easy.  Once our self-identified egos realize that we are open to the Truth beyond our personal selves, this is where it becomes treacherous.  Most of us abandon the path at the first sign of trouble.  That is okay.  Whatever you do or don’t do aligns perfectly with however the eventual awakening of the planet happens.  Do not worry one bit if going inward hurts too much because believe me, it does.  Maybe some day you will be ready, maybe some day you won’t, you are perfect right where you are at.  As much as I’ve tried to avoid going beyond the self, it hurts me more not to.  So, I keep going, one painful step at a time.  On to the next stage…

This is where you understand that there are two thought systems in your mind.  One that is full of judgment, blame, guilt, fear, comparison, lack…these all are personal self-ways to stay mired in the story of life.  The other thought system is LOVE.  This isn’t love in the traditional sense (as related to a personal self or selves).  This love doesn’t transform the outer world, this is the love that transcends it.  Very different.  This is the love that accepts the world exactly as it is because it is beyond the world.  This probably doesn’t make a lot a sense, that’s the trap built into it.  It seems to make no sense to keep the personal self denying the Truth. Even slightly entertaining the thought of something beyond the self might make you angry, upset or spark a myriad of malaise and maladies.  If it seems like too much trouble, then it is.  Let it go and if being a self in the world works for you, then keep going as you are.  Nothing to change, nothing to do, all is well.  However, if something inside you is recognizing even a tiny speck of the truth beyond the veil of the world, then you might make it your life’s work to consciously discern from the two thought systems in your mind.  If you do this, it is the hardest work you will ever do.  Your personal self will fight you tooth and nail.  It will be subtle, sneaky, overt, mean, seductive, and whatever else it can throw at you to keep you engaged in its story.  The personal self knows if you are outwardly focused on making the story of your life different, better, shinier… then you don’t have to do the work of letting it all go.

The next stage is the letting go part.  I’m not there yet so all I can write about is what I imagine this to look like.  This is where the thought system of love wins all the time.  There is no need or desire to change the self, the world or anyone or anything all.  This is where we are liberated from thinking we need to change anything about ourselves.  There is nothing wrong with us.  The only idea that is wrong is that we believe something that isn’t true.  We are more than our bodies.  Believing we aren’t is the source of all our pain, separation and angst.  However, I will say this again, if you are at peace with the story of your life and the world as is, it is okay to stick with it.  On the other hand, if something feels off or like you will never quite belong here, maybe consider the inward path.

I used to think that it was all up to me.  It’s not.  It is inevitable.  We all awaken in our own time and at our own pace.  This I know for sure.

“The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.”

-Steven Pressfield, The War of Art

The Suppression of Joy

A huge part of a spiritual awakening process, is aligning with your personality’s authenticity.  While the eventual goal is to detach from the personal, while you are still in the process, you have to honor the Truth of your personal self.  What this does is signal to your Mind that you are opening to the Higher Self within.  Being your Truest tiny self is the gateway to your Holy Self.

As I hone my authenticity, I realize that more often than not, I hide from others.  I am afraid to be this authentic self when I have an audience.  I am too worried that I will make others uncomfortable or wind up in an awkward situtaion.

I am a deeply feeling person.  I am introverted, intuitive, observant and empathic.  I want to talk about the circumstances of my life that appear to be causing my internal stress (they are not).  I want to chip away at my personal story to find the roots of my discomfort.  I want to cry.  I want to crack jokes.  I want to be free.

There are so many times throughout my day that I am stalled in a conversation that feels so untrue that I feel like pulling my hair out.  It seems like we are talking about something that is causing distress, but it feels off.

I have connected to the space between thoughts enough to know that we are never upset for the reason we think we are.  The only source of our discomfort is that we believe we are separate from God.

We never left God.

God never left us.

It’s heartbreaking when we believe we are separate and alone.  Thinking we have to conquer an impossible world by ourselves is hard. That’s a terrible story to live over and over.

I want to talk about it.  I have almost convinced myself that I need to talk about it with others.  I need to have my viewpoint validated to assure me I am on my way to spiritual freedom.

This is no more true than thinking I am separate from God.

No one is holding me back from authenticity.

Only I can do that to myself.

My joy and Truth are not suppressed.

I promise to give my best to each day, to be authentic as much as I’m able and learn the lesson that only I can lead me to where I need to go.

Where will you go today?

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Are You Ready?

Life isn’t as hard as we make it.  We often immerse ourselves so deeply in the personal self’s story, that we come to believe the personal self is our only avenue to peace.

This is not true.

Rearranging, changing, striving, acquiring are some of the ways we trick ourselves into believing that life will become sustainably satisfying.

Feeling unhappy?

Move to a different town.

Feeling frustrated?

Get a new job.

Feeling unfulfilled?

Set goals so you are always looking forward.

Feeling sad?

Buy yourself something new and shiny.

These are some of the ways we continuously look out into the world in search of that ineffable something that always seems out of grasp.

Why is the personal self and its life and its story so perpetually unfulfilling?

Because we are looking at everything backwards.

We are not happening to the world, the world is happening to us.

What does this mean?

We must train ourselves to look at our life and its particular curiosities as a means to turn inward.  If something on the outside seems uncomfortable to us, this is our invitation to let go of this discomfort and turn our attention inward.

But why?

If we turn inward enough, eventually we will reach a tipping point.  Let me be clear, you are going to be extremely and sometimes miserably uncomfortable in this process, but with enough time, pratice and patience, you will have moments where you can detach from this discomfort.  In these jewel-filled instances, you will KNOW that all is right with the world, even when it appears that it isn’t.

You can start whenever you are ready.

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Love and Purpose

What is your purpose?

God’s plan for you is simple.  God’s plan for you is right now.

You are living your purpose right now.

Nothing in the external experience of your life has to change.  Not one thing.

The personal self makes you think you must do or change something to be purposeful. You must take action to find your value.  You must constantly be on a vigilant quest to fulfill your destiny.  It does this so you keep your focus outside of yourself.  You will continue to look and ponder and wander and wonder, but you will never find your Real Purpose out there in life’s externals.

“Seek but do not find.”

A Course In Miracles

(T-16.v.6; W-71.4; M-13.5)

Real Purpose isn’t about doing, it’s about being.  You already are purposeful.

You woke up.  You are reading this.  You drank your coffee, or you didn’t.   Yet, you are powerfully purposeful.  You might have forgotten this or been distracted by believing you are not enough.

The power of Real Purpose comes from within.  Real Purpose is a present-moment decision. Real Purpose is remembering You are Love at all times.

AT ALL TIMES.

I said God’s plan for you was simple, but it isn’t necessarily easy.  Loving the unlovable, in whatever form it shows up for you, takes tremendous strength, courage and commitment.

You can’t do it alone.  You have to reach for God’s Hand to help you.  Trust me, you are going to have to reach again and again, so much so that your arm will ache with the effort. You are going be scared.  You are going to feel alone.  Why?  Because choosing Love over fear isn’t what you are used to.  There will be times that even leaning on the strength of God won’t be enough.  You are going to let go of His Hand.  You will run away and never want to look at Love again.  But you won’t be the same.  Living in fear and searching, searching, searching for a solace outside yourself that can’t be found, won’t be enough anymore.  So, with a heavy heart and fear of the unknown, you will once again raise your, aching outstretched arm to God.  Part of you hopes He lets go of you forever. Part of you knows He never let go in the first place.

You are Love.

You are Loved.

If you remember only this in every encounter or every endeavor, you are fulfilling God’s plan.

You become instantly purpose-filled.

It really is as simple and impossible as that.

You don’t need a radical life overhaul.

All you need is Love.