Tag Archive | Eckhart Tolle

Into the Well

My tiny self creeps to the edge of the well.  She looks down.  There isn’t a glimmer of light anywhere.  She sees only nothingness.

My True Self is there too.  She unfortunately fell headfirst into the well.  She managed to somehow maneuver herself to the side of the well.  She is there in the darkness clinging to the crevices of the slippery cool stones.  She is enveloped by the vacuum of night.  She is able to see up and out.  From her vantage point she sees her tiny self peering down at her, but she knows her tiny self can’t see her.  My True Self is completely alone.  She is in a panic.  She tries to shout, she tries to pray.  She considers trying to climb back up to her tiny self but she isn’t very strong and her tiny self is so far away.   It doesn’t take long for her to know she is stuck in the darkness.

My True Self then has a flash of vision.  In the vision she lets go.

That’s crazy.

That’s insane.

Who is stupid enough to let go and fall into the darkness?

The thought of letting go sends shooting icicles of fear from her limbs straight into her soul.

She will never let go.

After many years, my True Self tires.

She isn’t as committed to trying to reunite with her tiny self.

Maybe there’s another way.

Maybe it’s time to let go.

My True Self has another vision.  In it she lets go again.  She falls for a long, long time.

What is the fate that awaits her?

Turns out, it’s Total Safety.

There are pillows and beauty and Love.

Love awaits her if she will only be brave enough to let go.

 

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The Aliveness of All That Is

At any given moment, if I stop myself in time, I feel the energy of everything around me.  It is a constant buzzing that loops around me and through me.

I know I need to make peace with this energy.  I would prefer to be like everyone else and make my way in the world without noticing it.  I’m not sure, but most people I know of don’t feel this.  When I am brave enough to ask the questions, ‘Do you feel the energy of this tree?’ or ‘Can you feel your soul extending to infinity in all directions?’  The answer is no.

This makes me feel like a stranger in every aspect, angle and space my body seems to occupy in this world.

I don’t know why I feel this.  Mostly, I find it really exhausting and overwhelming.  I feel it right now as I type this.  An uncomfortable buzz that never leaves me.  I don’t know how to rest as a tiny self with this constant noise and bustle around me.

Here is an excerpt from an article I recently read about Eckhart Tolle that sums up what I perceive.

“Without perceiving things through the old filter of past conditioning and conceptualization, one can sense the universe is intensely alive.  Even so-called inanimate objects – I often pick up little objects and just look at them and sense they are alive.  Physicists actually confirm that what we perceive as dead matter is not dead at all.  Everything is an intensely alive energy field.  That aliveness is only an aspect of the aliveness or life that I am.”

-From ‘The Awakening of Eckhart Tolle’ by Paula Coppel,

(UNITY MAGAZINE)   Here’s the link to the entire interview:

Eckhart’s Interview

I have been running from this my entire life.  It is scary.  It is weird.  It solidifies me as a person who is never going to fit in.  This is my daily struggle.

I have to stop running.  I have to stop caring if you understand.  I can’t pretend any longer.  Why?  Because this constant aliveness-sensing WILL NOT STOP.

I am at fork in the road.  One way continues down a path where I feel everything but acknowledge nothing.  The other is I feel it, I acknowledge it and I share it cautiously with the world.

Thanks for walking the Path with me.