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Right Now

Everything holds the opportunity to open to the Divine.  Each day holds all that is needed to awaken.

It is important to remember enlightenment is not an instantaneous transformation.  It is years of consciously choosing to be fully present over and over until it sticks.  Even then, if you identify as a personal self, your work is not done.  It may seem a little easier with time and practice but it isn’t over.  It’s not over until it is.

There are a few that walk among us that appear farther along on their path.  There truly isn’t a way to measure spiritual growth.  Either you are open to Truth or you aren’t.  Both are acceptable ways of being in the world.  Where ever you are is perfection.

One thing that confounded me forever, was the idea that all we need to do is bring Presence to every aspect of our lives to transform it.  While this is true, I grappled with the idea that something as mundane as doing laundry was TRANSFORMATIVE.  Repetitive and mundane, yes,…transformative, no thank you.

The more I read about mindfulness and attempted to incorporate it into all facets of my life, the more confounded I felt.  No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t be peacefully attentive while doing tasks I hated (I’m still not).  I started to feel like a huge spiritual failure.

My understanding of being present is changing.  While I immensely dislike certain tasks throughout my day, I simply accept that I am uncomfortably bored by them.  Maybe you can relate to that feeling of wanting to be anywhere but where you are.  Maybe you understand that most of us will do all we can to avoid stillness at all costs.

What are we afraid of?


What If Pain Was Your Gift?

Nothing bad has ever happened to me.  Nothing bad will ever happen to me.

Nothing real can be threatened.

Nothing unreal exists.

Herein lies the Peace of God.”

-A Course In Miracles Introduction

This concept seems so simple but it is so hard to accept.

As a personal self we have so many bad things that happen.  We have endless future fears running a loop in our mind.  There is so much fear.  Peace seems impossible.

There is something within me that is driving me with such force, that I often only feel like I am along for the ride.  I will someday fully accept that nothing bad has ever happened to me and that nothing bad will ever happen to me.  It could be tomorrow, it could be next year or it could be decades in the making.  I’m not in charge of the timeline. I don’t think I’ve ever admitted that out loud.  I need to be reminded that I don’t have to try so very hard all day long, every day of my life.  I’ll get there regardless.  I still have to be willing and the force within me keeps that willingness alive, but I don’t have to make something happen that is not yet ready to unfold for me.

What are you trying to make happen?


Maybe there’s important wisdom to be gleaned from exactly where we are at.  Even if where we are is painful.  Maybe the answer is within the pain.  Maybe if I step back and breathe and let the pain be, maybe peace will come.  I’m starting to realize that I’ve been labeling my struggle all wrong.  Struggle is not the problem.  Trying to micromanage the struggle only deepens and prolongs the pain.

What if pain is my gift?


The Suppression of Joy

A huge part of a spiritual awakening process, is aligning with your personality’s authenticity.  While the eventual goal is to detach from the personal, while you are still in the process, you have to honor the Truth of your personal self.  What this does is signal to your Mind that you are opening to the Higher Self within.  Being your Truest tiny self is the gateway to your Holy Self.

As I hone my authenticity, I realize that more often than not, I hide from others.  I am afraid to be this authentic self when I have an audience.  I am too worried that I will make others uncomfortable or wind up in an awkward situtaion.

I am a deeply feeling person.  I am introverted, intuitive, observant and empathic.  I want to talk about the circumstances of my life that appear to be causing my internal stress (they are not).  I want to chip away at my personal story to find the roots of my discomfort.  I want to cry.  I want to crack jokes.  I want to be free.

There are so many times throughout my day that I am stalled in a conversation that feels so untrue that I feel like pulling my hair out.  It seems like we are talking about something that is causing distress, but it feels off.

I have connected to the space between thoughts enough to know that we are never upset for the reason we think we are.  The only source of our discomfort is that we believe we are separate from God.

We never left God.

God never left us.

It’s heartbreaking when we believe we are separate and alone.  Thinking we have to conquer an impossible world by ourselves is hard. That’s a terrible story to live over and over.

I want to talk about it.  I have almost convinced myself that I need to talk about it with others.  I need to have my viewpoint validated to assure me I am on my way to spiritual freedom.

This is no more true than thinking I am separate from God.

No one is holding me back from authenticity.

Only I can do that to myself.

My joy and Truth are not suppressed.

I promise to give my best to each day, to be authentic as much as I’m able and learn the lesson that only I can lead me to where I need to go.

Where will you go today?



Are You Ready?

Life isn’t as hard as we make it.  We often immerse ourselves so deeply in the personal self’s story, that we come to believe the personal self is our only avenue to peace.

This is not true.

Rearranging, changing, striving, acquiring are some of the ways we trick ourselves into believing that life will become sustainably satisfying.

Feeling unhappy?

Move to a different town.

Feeling frustrated?

Get a new job.

Feeling unfulfilled?

Set goals so you are always looking forward.

Feeling sad?

Buy yourself something new and shiny.

These are some of the ways we continuously look out into the world in search of that ineffable something that always seems out of grasp.

Why is the personal self and its life and its story so perpetually unfulfilling?

Because we are looking at everything backwards.

We are not happening to the world, the world is happening to us.

What does this mean?

We must train ourselves to look at our life and its particular curiosities as a means to turn inward.  If something on the outside seems uncomfortable to us, this is our invitation to let go of this discomfort and turn our attention inward.

But why?

If we turn inward enough, eventually we will reach a tipping point.  Let me be clear, you are going to be extremely and sometimes miserably uncomfortable in this process, but with enough time, pratice and patience, you will have moments where you can detach from this discomfort.  In these jewel-filled instances, you will KNOW that all is right with the world, even when it appears that it isn’t.

You can start whenever you are ready.




Hope vs Faith

What is the difference between hope and faith?

Hope means you wish something to be different than it is.

Faith is acceptance of what is regardless of how it may be judged by you or by the world.

Hope means that you look to the future for peace.

Faith means you are at peace right now.

Hope itself is neither bad or good.  It is part of the tapestry of the personal self’s story in the world. Sometimes the tapestry is rich and full. Sometimes the threads fray and the pattern is muted into oblivion. Faith loves both equally.

It is not up to you to let go of hope.  Sometimes hope will move you in a way the self deems helpful and sometimes hope will lead you nowhere.  Either way you choose to go, faith is happy to follow.

A personal self will always hope life will be different.  True freedom means allowing this hope to rise and fall like the tide.  The tide does not belong to you.  Faith has always known this.  Isn’t it time you know this too?



The Basket of Bread

A spiritual seeker is often the least popular person in the room. Being that a seeker is often highly perceptive, they know this and silence their Truth. That is why they are lonely in a crowd. They do their best to fit in when in fact, they only widen the divide of belonging by staying quiet.

It never pays to be less than Who-We-Are. Our choice as a seeker is simple. Choose your Truth or choose belonging.

Seekers must learn that belonging is the illusion. Only Truth is real.

For a long time a seeker will be alone, stuck in the need to connect with the world. It seems easier to play along, keep quiet and at least be invited into the room.

Eventually, the seeker loses strength, loses patience, loses hope.

Why is it that we seekers must wait to lose all hope before we journey back to Truth? I’m sad for the lost seekers. I’m also joyful that they are finally on their way Home.

Every day I am stepping out of the crowded room and speaking my Heart.  No one exactly knows what I’m talking about. No one actually gets what I’m trying to say. I’m not quite ready to give up on belonging for good, but I know I will let go of it eventually. It will fall away and I will once again be comfortable in any room, even if it’s crowded, vacant or won’t willingly open its doors for me.  It will not matter.  The rooms, the people, me…none of it matters.

Everything that does matter is within me. I have all the belonging I could every dream of multiplied by a thousand.  So do you.

Oh, my Dear Friend! You aren’t lost.

You are finally found.


Opening to Truth

Opening our minds to Truth is the only way to experience lasting peace.

Truth can only be learned through direct experience. It is the space between thoughts. It cannot be intellectually described. There are no personal concepts that capture it.

If you have a direct experience of Truth, the world of form will begin to make less and less sense to you. The tiny self will do all it can to keep you outwardly focused on its story in the world.  It will attack you, use fear and provide a never-ending stream of complicated worldly circumstances to keep your attention away from Truth.

The initial experiences of keeping Truth in your awareness are a lot of work. Truth seems unnatural because we are so invested in our individual identity. Letting Truth in is not a one and done process. It takes time and a willingness beyond the tiny self’s comprehension. You have to turn to Truth again and again until it sticks.

I have experienced Truth. I know I am more than the body that writes this. You can’t know this until you do. Once you do, you will never be the same.

“An awareness of Truth does not lead you to martyrdom. It leads you to accept the limitations of the world and the people in it. You will adjust to this with comfort when you know the Truth within you is the only constant on which you can rely. This awareness is what leads you to peace.”

-Elizabeth Cronkhite

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