You do not choose to no longer identify as a self in the world. Never condemn yourself for something so impossible. You have already shown great courage but welcoming in a new way of understanding. This is enough.
You are enough.
It is less about choosing and more about letting go.
Let go of the holy process of undoing the self.
Your willingness to see beyond it was all that was needed.
What a marvel you are.
Yet, do not get stuck in your own wonder. Every last person alive can have this willingness.
There has always been an invitation available to us. It was our birthright.
It was given to all of us.
Letting go of the self seems impossible if we feel responsible for it. We bump into error when we think our specialness lies in our ability to transcend the world while we still are a part of it.
We are not the doers.
Our holy selves do the work.
We only choose to allow for this work to happen or we stay grounded in the belief that we are human.
Both choices are lovely expressions of being. One is not more true than the other.
If you love your life as it is, if it makes sense, then there is nothing more to be done.
If you feel life is more than what we appear to know, rest in knowing that while hard work seems to lie ahead, you are not alone.