Once upon a moment in the story of time and space, I believed that I could change. I believed that what I did would impact outcomes and shape the tides of transformation.
This was a lot of work.
I was so busy, and by design, that my ‘work’ to control my life consumed me.
One day, as I set about my work to make my life what I wanted, the veil of illusion lifted.
Life was unfolding and I was simply along for the ride.
While I am grateful to know this and happy to slow down my efforts of control, I have to accept the truths I have been avoiding.
My life may not change to the story I want.
I may not find peace or be free from fear.
Yet, in acceptance of what is, I am finding a degree of freedom. Inaction is a balm to my overtaxed soul.
With this acceptance, hidden pain I had long ago buried has floated its way back to my awareness.
Instead of working hard to eliminate this pain, I am letting it be, letting it unfold.
Letting it teach me.