As a personal self, I am very invested in the success of my words as they show up in the world. This over-investment in outcomes weighs so heavily on me sometimes my pen becomes too heavy to lift to the paper. This is when my fear wins and the words stay cloaked inside me and they do no good for anyone.
First things first, I have to honor my personal self’s investment in her writing success. She was taught over and over in endless ways that what she does is more valuable than who she is.
I have to forgive her for that and then push her forward. She has to push through rejection, countless unpaid projects and often deafening silence that greets her soul-baring essays.
There is a lot of noise in resistance.
Once I have pushed her through all of that we come to a place of purity where the words flow and heal the writer.
I do not know if she will ever let go of succeeding, but I never want that to impede the true purpose of her writing….
to heal herself.
If we only meet ourselves in the world, then any healing she finds in herself will lead all of us together further down the path of our Great Awakening.