Before saying a word, he [Ajahn Chah] motioned to a glass at his side. “Do you see this glass?” he asked us. “I love this glass. It holds the water admirably. When the sun shines on it, it reflects the light beautifully. When I tap it, it has a lovely ring. Yet for me, this glass is already broken. When the wind knocks it over or my elbow knocks it off the shelf and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ But when I understand that this glass is already broken, every minute with it is precious.
– excerpted from FakeBuddhaQuotes.com
There is something to be said about our attachment to the way things are. We believe that if our external world aligns properly with our personal preferences then peace will be achieved. Perfect external alignment is an ephemeral concept at best. Those fleeting moments of having our personal agendas manifested are the hook that keeps us from going inward. Yet lasting peace never relies on the external. Only by connecting to our deep inner truth do we find ourselves home.
I often find myself very attached to certain outcomes for my personal self. I wished I looked better, felt better and that my favorite baseball team would win every single game they play. Living this way does not work for me any more. My attachment to outcomes is what is making me sick. This sickness is physical, mental and spiritual in nature. I am trying to learn another way.
When I walk my dog, who happens to be one of my favorite beings on the planet, I ponder my attachment to him. It is precarious. While he is healthy and spry for his age, at the center of my knowing I understand he will not live forever. My personal self is quite distraught over this potential loss. It was to a point where my anxiety about every little thing he did or did not do meant that the end was near. I was making myself miserable and forgetting to be present with him in the now.
My attachment to him is still strong. To counteract this I have opened a window in my soul. This is where I let the reality of impermanence dance its way through me. When I stay open and present with this truth, my attachment loosens a bit and I experience a loving flash of being in the moment. Being in the moment feels so much better than stressing about an attachment or outcome. There is no story about endings or beginnings, there is only grace.
My intention is to let grace guide me. With grace attachments are not required and honestly, neither am I.
There is only truth.