In the battle of the Split Mind (ego vs. God), you would think that God easily conquers all. If we accurately perceived we live in the True World of Perfect Oneness, then, yes, God easily conquers. Believing we are tiny, personal selves, however, puts the ego in charge.
The ego, as referred to in A Course In Miracles, does not mean an inflated sense of self in which the body (the tiny self) believes it is superior to other bodies. The ego is simply the belief that we are a body at all.
If you believe you are a body, you believe in the ego and its limited thought system.
When you catch a glimpse of the unlimited God, which is a formless experience of Peace, you finally start to question the validity of the ego.
“….spirit offers you the knowledge of permanent and unshakeable being. No one who has experienced the revelation of this can ever fully believe in the ego again.”
-A Course in Miracles (T-4.3.3:6-7)
Attempting, in error, to acclimate the ego to the Experience of God is when the battle begins. This is an error because the ego and God do not coexist. They are separate.
“Thoughts of God are unacceptable to the ego, because they clearly point at the nonexistence of the ego itself. The ego therefore either distorts them or refuses to accept them. It cannot, however, make them cease to be.”
The goal is to realize that anything that the body experiences as loving joy, is an extension of the God Experience. Anything originating in fear is from the ego.
The ego is wily and expertly blurs this distinction. Since you identify with the ego so closely, it uses this identification against you. It’s hard to fathom that as a body, you’ve never actually created a thing. Either you have recognized the Love of God or you haven’t
The beauty of this is that all the bad you thought was your fault, or all the bad you believe your Brothers created, simply does not exist.
“Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the Peace of God.”
Where it starts to seem impossible is the realization that nothing the body creates or perceives is real.
I have Experienced God. I still identify as an egoic, tiny self.
There is no peace in this.
My Split Mind is at war with itself.